i’ve never been the type to really get involved with someone. i never liked to actually be “with” someone and then have that progress into a “relationship” if you’d call it that. for some weird fucking reason, i just end any type of relationship i have with someone. i’m beginning to feel bad for every time i’ve done it because it wasn’t really fair and i didn’t have a reason for it. but looking back on all our old conversations makes me realize that you’re one person i’ve been “with” that i actually really miss. which is weird. you always made me laugh and i always loved talking to you, it was so easy to. it was like we were the same person almost, there was never a dull conversation. maybe if i put in more effort there could’ve been something more, or maybe it was your lack of effort… i don’t know. but just like the others, i basically just stopped talking to you completely. why? i don’t fucking know. but i regret it i’ll tell you that. even if we weren’t “together” maybe we could’ve just been good friends, but we don’t even speak now. and it really sucks to think that i lost someone i had who made me happy. and you probably wouldn’t ever think that i miss you, but i really, really do. and i hope we can somehow speak again, i don’t care how or when or with whatever intention. i would just love for you to come back into my life. lol i’m pathetic.